Mood Music: ‘Fall For You’ Leela James

Just when you think that you have built up walls to not cry over Jasmine Sullivan, Adele, and good ole Mary J. Blige you find another song to tug at your emotions and throw you back in your feelings.

Let me tell you about the song ‘Fall For You by Leela James, and how this song helped me take residence in my feelings.

The beauty of her voice when she sings the lyrics captures you, and puts you into a trance. And when you realize you are in the same situation she is singing about you are pulled in deeper. You realize that you are falling yourself and start smile with uncertainty.

In the song she asks, “Would you catch me if I fall for you?” A simple question, but a damn hard one to ask.  From my own experience I hate liking someone, and when I do I am just worried and I need to know how the other person feels also. And that is what she is saying. I am falling for you, and I need to know if you feel the same way. Because no one wants to be in love alone.

I stumbled across this song while listening to Major’s ‘Why I Love You‘ which already had me in my feelings, and then I heard this. That night was just a recipe for snuggling up next to a bottle of Kroger wine and tears slowly streaming down my face.

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One part of the song she says “But this thing is new baby. Feels like I’m losing control.” When I heard that part I knew this song was for me to hear. You might know that feeling when you can get so emotional and realize you are not as guarded as you thought. You haven’t felt this way in a long time. You start realize you are in deeper than you than you thought. Falling.

Trust me when I tell you that this is a song that you will want to hear. We all have that In  My Feelings playlist, so get ready to add this song to the list next Mary J’s ‘I’m Going Down’.  So be cautious when you are listening because these words may hit close to home. And you might find yourself like me snuggled up with some Merlot.

 

Check it out below.

It’s not you, it’s me

The famous break up line “It’s not you, it’s me”, has been heard in movies, tv shows, and real life situations. It usually means someone is taking blame for a breakup. In my case I am not quoting this phrase due to a break up, just my life for at this point.

Have you ever noticed yourself being frustrated a lot more than normal? Or are you starting to pick fights with family members for the smallest things?  Everyone else is the problem? Then take it from me, this is for you and you might be the problem.

I am 25 years old with a B.A. in Communication and minor in journalism from THE Coastal Carolina University, and I stay with my mother. So this is my personal testimony on this topic.

A little backstory:  I decided to move home March of 2015 after graduating in August of 2014.  I thought  moving home seemed like the smartest way to save money, and not be tied to a lease. if I was to land a job somewhere else.  So I would worked to save my pennies and keep applying for jobs within the journalism field. To my surprise finding a job within the news field is extremely difficult, and everyone wants two to five years of experience from college students.   I did however develop have a nice savings account backing me until rainy days and other stressful situations came. I did land a job at a news station, and worked as a master control operator for six months. It was a temp to hire position, that I my six months did not compete well against someone with ten years. But I still got the professional experience, so I am grateful.

It is now half way into 2017 and I am still staying home and I noticed a change in my behavior. I am annoyed.  For sometime I thought it was everyone else who was the problem? Because how could I be a problem for any one?  Until one day it hit me that I was the problem. Being mad with everyone else because I am truly upset with myself.

Do not take mistake my annoyance of staying at home with being ungrateful or unappreciative, because moving back to home was the smart thing to do. It just isn’t something that was meant for me to do as long.

My space is not my space, the rules are not my rules, and the comfort is going. Which in itself can be that fire that puts you to action and start moving forward. Moving myself back on the path that I once visioned.

This butterfly wants to fly. I just haven’t used my wings in a while.

It is me because I am the only person preventing myself from finding greener pastures.  And being content with content is not how I ever thought I would live my life.

To quote my favorite line from the movie Set It Off, “It ain’t you that I’m mad at“.

She is a bitch and her name is Karma

We all may have heard the saying, “What goes around comes around“, but we never really knew if that was  true or just something we are just use to saying. Well, take it from me karma came around and she is a bitch.

From my experience with the phrase ‘What goes around come around’, means you have done something mean, hurtful, or just not nice to another person and you will get yours one day. Which in some sense can be a way of bringing peace regarding a situation knowing that the universe will handle it. So you should let go and move on. On the other hand when you are receiving what you have once given that is where the bitch comes in. 

My personal testimony on this matter is that I am on the receiving end of what I have once given off, and it involves a guy.

When I was in college I loathed the thought of being in a relationship and falling in love again. I did not want to give my all to someone as I did with this guy I dated for my last two years of high school. So, when I got to college I was in my Trina ‘Single Again‘ mindset. Which meant I led a lot of guys on, dated , tried friends with benefits, you name it. No Shirley Caesar. Wanting companionship, but do not want to commit because you are to guarded after the last person broke your heart.

The saying goes, “Having your cake and eating it too“.

Although I was in my ‘Single Again’ mindset there was this one guy that I got into a relationship with that lasted about two years.We was great together aside from all the drama and foolishness, and I gave him as much as I allowed myself to give him knowing he was giving me his all. I was selfish. I was not the best boyfriend, and I knew that. He had his faults that contributed into the fall of our relationship, but I would be lying if I said that the way I acted did not contribute to his faults or insecurities. You really hurt people that way. Because they know you care for them, but you do not know it yourself.

I acted as if I was single sometimes while dating someone. And I have developed feelings for someone who acted just as I did when I was in college sometimes. And it hit me like a head on collision when I thought to myself, Now I see how my ex must have felt dating me“.

Now isn’t that a bitch?

The funny thing about karma is that once you are on the receiving end you are aware of it, or at least I am/was. You then come to realize that you should always treat others how you want to be treated, that old saying.  You start to  give others advice to be cautious with things they are doing because you know from experience that they will one day be in that same situation and paralyzed from getting out. Like an older person speaking wisdom to the youth, but you do not listen. You think you are invincible, until it is you.

She is a bitch and her name is Karma.

Under construction

2016 has been a roller coaster of a year for me, and in this roller coaster of a year I have neglected my website and my writing. My purpose for this site was to enhance my writing. With almost a year of not posting I have to re-grease the wheels to start back up. No more putting it off for me. That is stopping. I am coming back, and I am trying to produce a better page for my readers.

Demetri

Carowinds releases video of Fury 325

Carowinds officials released their first test run video for their new coaster Fury 325.

The video was released late Wednesday afternoon and is taken from the riders point of view. Giving the viewer the feeling of actually being on the ride for the first drop.

Fury 325 will be debuting in the Spring, and will be the world’s fastest and tallest giga-coaster.

A giga coaster by Wikipedia definition, is a type of roller coaster with a height or drop that ranges from 300 feet (91m) to 399 feet (122m) and completes a full circuit.

The ride stands at 325 feet tall with an 81 degree initial drop. The ride reaches a high speed up to 95 miles per hour. Japan’s Steel Dragon 2000 will be moved to second place for the tallest giga coaster, standing at 318 feet tall.

Fury 325 is part of a $50 million-year expansion for the North Carolina park.

Victor Hampton released from Baltimore Ravens

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Baltimore Ravens cornerback Victor Hampton was released following an arrest made in Charlotte.

Hampton, 22, was arrested in Charlotte for speeding, reckless driving, and possession of an open container over the weekend. Reported that he was driving 100 mph in a speed zone of 55 mph.

The team confirmed Monday that they will be dropping Hampton. Who signed with the Ravens in January.

Hampton never played or practiced with the Ravens while being signed.

Hampton studied at the University of South Carolina and is originally from Darlington, South Carolina.

President Obama coming to Columbia

President Obama will be visiting South Carolina on Friday for his first time since being President.

The President will be visiting Benedict College in Columbia, South Carolina attending an event focusing on youth leadership.

Obama’s last visit to South Carolina was in 2008 during the Democratic primary against Hilary Clinton held at The University of  South Carolina (USC).

South Carolina is one of the last three states President Obama has yet to visit since being in office. Utah and South Dakota are the last two states for him to visit in the country.

 

Rosie O’Donnell is leaving the view

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Another lady is stepping away from ABC’s The View, this time it is Rosie O’Donnell leaving again to focus on her family.

The news was confirmed by a ABC News spokesperson and a O’Donnell’s publicist Cindi Berger of her departure.

Berger also told the New York Post that O’Donnell split with her wife, Michelle Rounds, after two years of marriage. The split reportedly happened in November of 2014. The couple adopted a daughter together, and O’Donnell has four other children.

“Rosie is an immensely talented star who comes in each and every morning brimming with ideas, excitement and passion for the show,” a spokesperson for the network said in a statement. “When she told us that she wanted to exit ‘The View,’ we respected and understood her desire to put her well-being and her family first.”

O’Donnell’s last show is scheduled for sometime next week.

Facebook and Instagram went down; everyone goes to Twitter

People across the United States and other countries such as Asia, Australia, and the U.K. could not access their Facebook and Instagram accounts.

The outage started a little after 12 a.m. Tuesday morning. People trying to access their accounts was greeted with the message, ” Sorry, something went wrong. We’re working on it and and we’ll get it fixed as soon as we can.”

“This page is not responding,” was another message users received when trying to get on the sites.

The dating site Tinder, which runs from a Facebook connection was down also.

When word spread that the sites were down people took to their twitter accounts to poke fun at the outage. Twitter users started the hashtag, #Facebookdown .

Along with the hashtag #Facebookdown memes were also created. Some tweets and memes poked fun at the reliance of social media as the only way for human interaction.

Roughly a hour later both sites were back running and the world could breath again like Toni Braxton.